Bila kau perlu,

Toleh.

Aku ada.

I'm smiling. And laughing.

Out loud. 

Like i never did before.

Of course i used to laugh louder, smile wider.

Then somehow i stopped. 

For quite sometime.

Hoping to get the smile and laugh back, someday.

But then i realize, 

What if that someday is today?

The day that i decided to be free from any false hope, and redah whatever came across me now with joy. And believe in my heart, that is the best for me.

The day that i decided to appreciate what i have now, instead of wanting something i didn't even know if i really own it before or ever will.

The day i stop chasing, but walk slowly and enjoy the moment instead.

The day that i decided not to be selfish. To give, without expecting the gain. 

• Thank you, kawan. Kau buat aku sedar 'dari jauh' tu lagi bermakna dan tak mengewakan :] 

#machohabis 

Every time I look at other people and envy for what they have, I'll be reminded of what I used to have and how it brought me astray, and how Allah put me on the track back. 

And for I see things differently now, putting my trust to Allah on every decision that I'd made, its easier to feel redha for whatever came across me.

I couldn't ask Allah for more.

While everybody tells me to pray for happiness and success and of course jodoh cepat, hana doa Allah jadikan Hana Dalila seorang yang kuat dan sabar, redha dalam jalan yang Allah pilih untuk dia, tak kira apa pun jalan tu, asalkan Hana Dalila jadi seorang yang layak memijak kaki ke syurgaNya. 

Because I realize that the only way to be happy and success is to please and be pleased with Allah.

But ofcourse, it is easier to say it, than do it.

Manusia lemah. Hana lemah.

Kadang kadang lupa hati ni bukan kuat sentiasa.

But i'm trying hard to be better, everyday.

Hari hari bertarung dengan nafsu dan emosi diri sendiri.

Hari hari kena tepuk tanya kabar, suruh bertahan.

Hari hari pesan jangan sedih, sebab ini yang terbaik.

Hari hari ingatkan diri saat diri jatuh tersungkur, siapa yang ada.

Siapa yang papah.

Dan apa yang buat diri masih bernyawa.

Just dont give up just yet, Hana Dalila. 

You'll be fine.

I promise you.