its okay hana. U had warned yourself pun dah kan. There will be days like today. Hari yang kau aan rebah, terduduk menangis. Jangan risau, sakit ni, sikit je kalau nak banding dengan seksa akhirat nanti. Mungkin Allah nak ampunkan dosa lalu. Allah bagi sakit sekarang, so that you won't suffer much later. Sabarlah.