Is being happy is all it?

If you want to be happy, expect less than other people. You do things to make yourself happy, don't ever expect anyone to be responsible for your happiness. Not your family, not your friends, not even your partner is responsible to make you happy. Your happiness is your responsibility alone. Only a happy person can make other people happy. So if you're not happy, how can other people be happy to be around you? If other people is not happy and comfortable to be around you, how can you be happy and feel loved?

It's a circle. That's why it is so important to surround yourself with positive people. People who let out good vibes even at times when they feel low. People who acknowledge whatever emotion that they're feeling and other's as well. But it is more important for YOU to train your mind to be positive. Yes, our mind needs training. And yes, be that positive person who give out the good vibes.

I've came a long way of the journey to keep my peace through my turbulent life. Some days I manage to keep my calm, some days I lose it. Thus, it is important as well to acknowledge that your goal in this life is not to be happy, alone. I mean, yeah who doesn't want the ultimate happiness kan? But we won't get it here, in this dunya. Will never get the absolute happiness because helloo. Ini dunia bukan syurga.

I always remind myself the ultimate purpose of us being in this earth to please Allah, by doing what He asks us to do, and be away from what he restraints. Whatever that had happened, happening and going to happen in the future, they are just pieces of events (tests) that we're collecting the results of our deed and actions to be judge at our final destination later on.

So if being happy is not our goal in this earth, what is it then? For me.. I've come to the point where I've decided that to make amend with the mindset 'I'm on the right track if I feel happy. And if I'm not happy, I'm screwed'. I just want to be content, tenang, to accept everything that happening is just a phase that will pass, to find happiness in little things, and being okay with a not okay situation. I am somewhere along the journey. As I said, hari I was doing amazing, ada hari not so good. And I'm okay with that! So proud of myself.

Okay this is long enough. Should continue 'feeling jadi housewife' mood. Lipat baju, kemas bilik and soo excited for my husband to come homee soon. Going back to Penang tomorrow for CNY holiday break 💕💕