because someone travels nearly the same journey I've traveled.

The day you left me, you left a trail of tears and hurt in my eyes.
You were the one who was supposed to be my strength, but you became my every weakness. 
Every time I think of you, every time I remember our memories, I feel like something's stuck in my throat. 
I can't breath. 
The clock stops ticking. 
My heart stops beating.
The blood in my body seems like it's clogging up in my arteries.
And at that point, I just don't know what to do.

But then I turn to the only person who knows exactly how I feel,
Allah, my creator, the person who sees every my deed and who sees my every pain.
And Even though he already knows, I put my hands together in Duwa and tell him how I feel.
I tell him what I want and constantly ask him for his mercy, his forgiveness.
He is the only one who can make this situation better.
He's the only one who can make me realize all the mistakes I've made.
If Allah doesn't forgive me, then no one will.
If Allah doesn't help me, no one will.

I know I have wronged.
I have made mistake after mistake.
But I thought it was okay, because you promised to marry me right?
But then you showed your real side, your real attitude and I realized that you aren't worth it.
Allah has created someone out there just for me.
Allah has created someone who will come and take my hand to lead me into Jaanah.
Allah has created someone who will complete half my deen.

So you know what, just go away.
Get out of my mind. Get on with you're life.
I don't need you. I never did.
Because when the time is right,
Someone will come into my life and he will be my gift from Al-Rahman Al-Raheem.


p/s: copy-pasted. deep.