when you want something you can't have.

Every time I look at you,
I sigh quietly.
I wish you know how much i miss you.
I do, I really do.
I really want to talk to you.
To have you as before.
As a friend, atleast.
Tapi hati belum cukup kuat.
I'm afraid that I might fall for you again.
Not that the feeling ever go away anyway.

Every time i told myself,
Aku okay. Perasaan tu dah tak ada.
Whenever you appear in front of me I know its not true.
But I'll never expect you to feel the same.
I just don't know what to do with myself.

Alhamdulillah, atleast I'm not grieving hoping for you to come back like i used to.
I know the fact that you'll never come back, ever.
And I accepted that.
I will never stop you from moving on.
I just want you to be happy.
To be fine, and success dunia akhirat.

I wish I can be beside you through your ups and downs.
To cheers for your joy, to grieve for your tears.
But the spot aren't for me anymore kan?
I wish you know I'm here. Always.
In case if you ever need me.

The truth is, no matter how I told people and myself too that I want to be away from you
I know that is not what I really want.
Maybe that is what I need, not what I want.
Not having you by my side, I can cope with that
The thought of not being able to see you again, scares me..a lot.

Haha. Kelakar. Ego tinggi.
Konon rasa diri batu.
Padahal telur je.
Luar keras, dalam lembik.