Arghhhh.
I hardly sleep last night.
Terjaga awal pun tak boleh tidur balik.
Can't stop thinking about yesterday.
Resah + happy + relieved?
Bukan happy sebab benda yang buruk jadi.
Or happy sebab orang lain susah/in difficult situation. Tak, tak.
But somehow I'm happy for being able to feel again.
After my last disastrous break up,
and with the situation in my current relationship,
I thought I couldn't feel anything ever again.
Macam rasa mati.
Fight for the relationship to work,
but I've got no reason behind it.
Like, I always do something that I believes in.
But I simply could not find anything no matter how hard I tried.
Yes, I've tried. Very hard.


And I'm happy that now I know what I want,
and what I should do.
How.. itu tak tahu lagi.
Susah? Memang susah.
Lagi lagi kalau melibatkan hati orang yang kita sayang,
and sayang kita.
Tapi sayang dan cinta tu lain kan?
Even if I don't get to be together with cinta,
atleast I know that I don't want to be in relationship half-heartedly.

Pray for me!